Dear rainbow hunter,
As I sit here doing my best to write a short birthday card to a bereaved mother I know that there are no appropriate greetings for a day like this. I wish with all my heart that I could just say “Happy birthday!” but I know it would mean nothing to you and maybe it would make you feel even more heartbroken.
I wish I could give you a day filled with laughter and joy but instead you’ll probably have just another day of tearful eyes and a heart filled with love.
I wish I could give back to you all the light and love that you have shone on my soul when I was in my darkest moments so that it could brighten up your day and help you see the rainbow. You know even though the most beautiful stars only shine in darkens, rainbows chose to live in the light and that is where your soul will be reborn.
I know you would give anything to spend the day with a nine month old baby in your arms, I know you would like to spend your time chasing around your little crawler but you find yourself instead still learning to navigate this sea of grief. I just hope with all my heart that it is gentle to you today and that the waters are calm.
On this day I hope you are surrounded by rainbows and love and I hope you know what a brave momma you are! I know there is no way to fully mend your broken heart, I know you wouldn’t want it anyway because the missing piece will always be living proof of the rainbow that resides in your soul. However, love will stitch the leftover pieces together and create a new you, a you that has seen death, darkness and despair and still chooses light because you know that every time you see a rainbow there is light shining down upon you.
Remember, life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain so that you can fully enjoy the rainbow at the end of it…
“Shine your soul with the same egoless humility as the rainbow and no matter where you go in this world or the next, love will find you, attend you and bless you.”